I am terribly stressed about this trip for many, many reasons. This is a hard place to be in because I want to spill out all my worries and say, "look at all this!". It would be easier that way, but I also don't feel like it would be right. Instead, I am trusting God for things like I never have before. I am not even going to bring anything up here, I'm laying it at His feet and preparing to watch Him work. Trusting as much as I am humanly able, and mostly realizing how terribly small my faith is.
Those who know your name will trust in you,
for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.
Psalm 9:10
for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.
Psalm 9:10
Your prayers are definitely appreciated.
6 Thoughts From My Readers:
Dawn, I am heartbroken for you that this is simply another visit and not the trip to bring them home. I too will lay these things at the feet of our Father and pray that His plan for these kids will unfold in such a beautiful way that He alone will get the glory.
Hey, Dawn - I know that this is stressful, but I am glad that you are going. It's so unfair that you have to make another visit trip when you were all planning to never have to say goodbye again. I know that it will be confusing (maybe even frustrating) for the kids to see you again without being able to come home, but the important thing is that they will see you again. They will know that you.keep.coming.back. And that will mean a lot, even if they cannot process it all at the time. Go, trust, and pack in as much love as you possibly can while you are there. Hug them, kiss them, pray over them, and refill their hearts (and yours). You can do this. (((Hugs)))
Dawn - you most certainly have my prayers! As always.
My heart breaks for you that you and your children have to endure another "visit," another good-bye. I've never given "birth" to a child, and a lot of my friends talk about "having a piece of themselves walk around outside their body" after birthing a child, but I always, always remember the pain and agony of having my children separated from me for an entire year - not being the ONE there to kiss their boo-boos, hug their fears away. It is an excrutiating and exhaustingly numbing pain. When you are a mother you are supposed to "do." Do things for your children, it is so hard not to be able to DO those things for your two.
And yet, there lives are sooooooo much better KNOWING that they have a Mommy (and Daddy and siblings) that LOVE them unconditionly. That KEEP fighting for them. A Mommy who's heart it big enough to keep DOING everyday what needs to be done FOR them. No matter how much it hurts. ;-(
May God pick up and run with the burdens you have placed at His feet. May you and the children KNOW that and receive his Grace and Calming of the Heart so that you can enjoy the hugs and the laughter that surely will come with being reunited.
I'm packing all my love, hugs, strength and Faith into this message. I hope you feel it some. I hope it helps ease your burden. You are NOT alone. We will PRAY you through this.
((hugs))
My prayers are definitely offered. :-)
Love you,
Julie
We do not know each other. Our two things in common are a reliance on the Lord and waiting in adoption. I seriously cannot imagine how hard the past five years plus have been. Especially lately when it seemed like it was going to happen.
I am praying for you and for Ronaldo and Julia.
Yes, I am loosing it! I posted on the other one, and I thought is was this one!
HUGS AND LOVE!! We have to hang on the hope sweetie!! We just have to put FAITH WITH HOPE!
Love Ya Bunches!
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